cerita saya pula

hello girls!
hehe.
oleh kerana saya tengok kamu masing2 mengupdatekan diri di sini, so, sy pun mau jugak la cerita-cerita skit.
ntahlaa.
feels so lazy to type anything right now.
ni pun menggagahkan diri ni. -,-

lama sudah kan kita nda cerita-cerita, skyping, calling2. rindu o.
banyak betul rasanya mau cerita sama kamu.
nda bole la cerita semua sni kn.
sbb ada pekara tu kn best lagi cta depan-depan.
baru rasa feel tu. haha.

i don't know what to tell actually.
tapi sy mau kamu tau la yang sy sekarang ni happy and yes. i'm totally over him already!
yippie!
sometimes, bila sy tengok profile dia ka, i wonder who he is.
mcm nda kenal sudah bh.
he left me with no hard feelings or hurt feelings anymore.
i'm moving on, girls! jyeah!
it's not easy as it seems but yes, i'm so grateful i can totally forget about him.
memang teda la sudah sekelumit perasaan buat dia sudah.
sebesar zarah pun teda. 0.0%
hehe.
and it's all thanks to all of you, my friends, my family and yes, to Allah.
i hope i'll learned many things from this.
and actually i have to say thanks to him too.
he makes me want to forget him ASAP.
i owe him an appreciation i guess.
hehe.

and i'm moving on and don't want to look back, anymore.
just move with the flow.
let's move together, guys.
hehe.
as you know, before this, i have many probs with myself.
with adjusting with my environment.
right?
but right now, Alhamdulillah. i am enjoying every minutes i have with my classmates.
and friends at IP.
i'm trying my best to adapt myself with them. socializing. making friends.
before this, i just too focus with one person in my life.
and yes. that was my mistakes.
i'm focusing on him and kind of ignored or don't really that care with my surrounding. with my friends.
i just live in my own life.
that's why i always have this one bad feelings inside me.
always not satisfied with almost everything.
yes. it really bad. i always complained.

and it's all thanks to my lecturer. I make an appointment with my counselor.
yes. everyone will think that i have you know problems with my discipline or anything related to that.
i just don't care what people wanna say.
i'm enjoyed and shared many things with the lecturer.
he didn't help me solving my problems.
but he help me to improve myself by giving me advice and tell me ways to solve the probs.
i'm so thankful. and that's the beginning of my changes.

i don't really know if my changes is good or bad.
i just turn to be opened with everyone.
i'm still remember what my lecturer said to me:

'You can't make them be like you nor you can't make yourself be like one of them. We have our own characters and way we did things. That's human. We have to accept their way as they are.'

and Alhamdulillah.
i start to accept and enjoying myself the way i should be.
it feels great.

about my love life.
well, i guess, for the time being, i don't really want to think about love just yet.
it really takes a lot of time to heal this broken heart. to trust other people again.
it just not that simple.
this shattered heart brings me to reality.
reality which is i should focus on my study, my family, myself, my friends and my happiness.
lagipun for me best lagi bekawan-kawan ja kn. hehe. ;)

i believe that our happiness is not depends on the person we called 'boyfriend'. it's all depends on us.
we should create happiness for ourselves. am i right?
i don't want to wait for anyone to make me happy, i'll try my best to be happy and makes everyone happy.

cause i'm just too tired to be sad again. so, let's be happy together, okay besties!
i love you!
i miss you!
thanks for reading entry yang ntah apa2 ni.

lots of love from me,
CHA. :)