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Kehadapan Sahabat2 yg saya sayang terutmanya Aiza Suhaimi yg manja.. hehe..

Actually kan sy banyak kali sda taip2 ni blog tp ntah napa bila half way ja sy padam, sy macam no idea n speechless. hehe.. tza, maybe i'm the one who's boring.. :(

Lepas baca blog latest dr aiza ni, bebola mata sy macam kaca sda, sebak saya baca (emotional melanda2). Sampai gula2 yg sy tgh makan pun x rasa. uinah.. melampau kan. haha..

(ini la gula2 yg sy makan, roommate sy sedekah)

Back to the point yeah.. To be honest, i'm the one who feel bad in our friendship. Like u said before, i ask you guys to create a blog for our group but i'm the one who ditch it cause my post just one.. huhu.. 

My life here was totally different, busy is my friend right now. I guess being a doctor is the funniest decision that i made cause honestly, doctor equal to robot which has a HEART but i'm not regret about it cause i've learn a lot.

HERE,

I'm totally independent, I still remember the first time i went here. I learn from zero. That time i'm the only  malay girl who came here for my batch. The first week seems like hell to me. Almost 5 days i didn't solat coz i don't event know the prayer time in dubai,moscow n kursk. When i reach Kursk (a place where i stuck right now.. hehe..) my roommate are 2 Chinese girls, everyday i have to "pungut" them from the floor cause they drunk n i have to wear hijab 24 hours cause they bring some guys sleep together cause they drunk.  

Can u imagine , how i feel to sleep with them?? some more they cook pork inside our room, these burn my heart when my sponge bob comforter bau perfume babi.. arggg... When i went for solat subuh n i saw 2 bottles of  VOTKA n the floor was wet with it . I cried on the sejadah and ask Why i'm stuck here?. Help me.. Help me.. I want to call my mom but that time i have no internet. I'm hungry, i just have a rice cooker but i don't event know where? how? to buy rice n all the stuff.. just eat mee sedap for 1 week

Some more they speek 100% russian n they are very garang, if you don't understand them, 

u better prepare kena marah...

kn marah yg sehabis marah, mcm mo nangis jg mula2 coz x besa .. :'(

 2 months heart disease.... 

OMG

~sedih~

Hey chill la, now i getting better, my Chinese friend now understand how to live with me as Muslim. 

Now they don't event touch the votka n one of them being my close friend n wake me up for subuh some more.

^^

(that's her, the Chinese girl that i told before)

Wei, actually i miss bergila2 with you guys..

I do have a lot of friends cause kamu tau la kan yg sy ni friendly (haha) tapiii..

i cannot love them n trust him as i trust you guys.

i cannot miss them as i miss you guys..

i cannot share my love story full page as i share with you guys..

n 

i cannot find someone like you guys anymore.

:'(

I know we so far away, mo ckp slalu2 pun, time kita berbeza, Jet lag btl .. sy br bangun kamu sda pekena chicken chop 2 kali makan tengah hari.. 

Basically, what i can do if i miss you guys is doakan ja la.. 

Sy slalu jg stalk kamu punya fb just to make sure everything is okay.

klu sy tgk status aiza emo, sy tanya farrah or icah knpa? sbb sy tau

tza2 ni mmg share sendiri2 kan.

hehe..

x pa la, sy faham sda perangai kita semua.. sy pun x perfect, yg penting kita tau

yg kita selesa sama2

n if u need me or i need u guys,

kita tau di mana mau cr..

i have my shoulder but it's far to offer you lay on it,

but i still have my hand to type my words to make u happy like this (^_________^)

i have my eyes to watch you in skype

i have my ear to hear what you want to say

i have a time if you ask me to find it

n 

i have a heart just to love you sincerely

Always remember, 

if we didn't contact each other for a while, 

it doesn't mean we forget.

but if we wish the best for our friendship 

we'll realize n do something just to keep this friendship going

cause we don't know our time

maybe now, tomorrow, next week, next year or next2 year or when la..

our death note will sign 

so, to avoid from regretting it, i do care of you guys..

from my heart 

I LOVE YOU n I'M SORRY 

~tza~

~cha~

~farrah~  

  

InsyAllah pas ni sy rajin post2 di blog ni k.

27 Jan ni sy ada ikut Kursus Kawin di Moscow.. nntikan cerita saya.. haha..

(Pergi kursus sbb free so bila mo kawin nnti x payah susah2 mau pg lg)

...hahaha...